Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Getting closer...very close!

Wanted to let you know that we just got DHS approval!!! Praise God!!! Please start praying that we will get a visa appointment scheduled in a timely manner. Thanks!
Update: We recieved notice that our visa appt. is Tuesday!!!! That is all God!!! Thank you Jesus!!! Please pray for approvals on Tuesday!

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Doing God's Will...

Ever since Randy & I recommitted our lives to the Lord in 1997, we have been striving to do His will. At the beginning we were pretty bad at it...missing the mark most of the time because we weren't listening or just didn't want to. We found out the hard way that it's really not a smart thing to not listen to God & to not to what He says.

So I think that over the past years we have been getting better at it even though most of the time it's not easy to do. We do it & trust that He knows what's best for us...and He has never failed us thus far...He does know what is best for us!

We had a back up plan in case I did not get doctor approval to fly to Haiti. I was happy Monday when my doctor said I could fly but I didn't have a peace about going. I was happy that I was healthy enough to fly but wasn't sure that I was suppose to go with Randy to pick up the kids. I called Randy at work & asked him if I should go with him & he said, "Well, if the doctor said you could fly, then I think you should go." I said, "Okay" but still didn't have a peace about it.

Randy sent me an E mail from work on Tuesday basically saying that he wasn't sure that I should go, so we agreed to pray about it. I then called a good friend of mine to ask her to pray about it too & she said that she would but then said, "I think your heart already has the answer." When I asked her to explain what she meant she pointed out to me that I had complete peace about not going...something that I had been waiting for over two years for...she said you would not be at peace about it if that wasn't what you were suppose to do. It immediately clicked inside of me because that has always been the determining factor for me on whether I should do something or not, or what path to take. I ask God for His will to be done & that He would give me a peace about it one way or the other.

I had total peace about not going but did not have peace about going so there was my answer! I called Randy & talked to him about it, & he agreed. So we are going with our original back up plan. Troy M. (Brandy's husand) will be going with Randy to bring our kids home. I am so excited that he is going! Phoebe & I will be eagerly waiting at the airport for their arrival...and no, I'm still not making my own cake or shooting my own homecoming video :o)

We did find out yesterday that the medical test results are negative. Praise God!!!
However, yes...there's always "more" in Haiti...they now want a certain translation certified so that is suppose to be done today. Praying that we will get DHS approval by the end of the day.

Monday, April 20, 2009

No and Yes...

No, I have not heard anything from Haiti today :o(
Yes, I did have my recheck with my doctor today...and he gave me the "green light" to fly to Haiti to bring my children home :o)

Sunday, April 19, 2009

One month from today...


Caleb turns two. Please continue to pray that he will be home by his 2nd birthday. Thanks!

Thursday, April 16, 2009

I will...

be joyful & thankful during this time of waiting! I must admit that out of all of the waiting that I have ever had to do in my life...waiting for my "knight in shining armor" to come along, waiting for 14 years after getting married for Phoebe to come along, waiting another 3 years after that for God to reveal his plans to enlarge our family, currently waiting for 2 years & 4 months for that plan to come to completion...that these past few weeks have been the hardest of the waiting that I have done so far in my life. I'm not exactly sure why but they have been.

Yesterday I was eagerly awaiting the news of negative TB results & instead got "kicked in the stomach" with the news that the tests results won't be back until Monday...which of course means that our DHS approval will not happen this week as most of us had hoped & prayed for. I will admit that I did get very bummed about this. But the good thing about having a "bouncy" personality is that you don't stay in one spot for very long :o) So last night before I went to bed I was determined not to let this get to me & that I will continue to wait patiently upon the Lord.

This morning I woke up & Psalm 100 really spoke to me so I am going to share it with you & I pray that it blesses you as well.

Shout with joy to the Lord, all the earth!
Worship the Lord with gladness.
Come before him, singing with joy.
Acknowledge that the Lord is God!
He made us, & we are his.
We are his people, the sheep of his pasture.
Enter his gates with thanksgiving;
go into his courts with praise.
Give thanks to him & praise his name.
For the Lord is good.
His unfailing love continues forever,
& his faithfulness continues to each generation.
Psalm 100 NLT

Updated at 7:42am

My hubby sent this devotion from Dr. David Jeremiah to me this morning & it so goes along with what's going on in my life & possibly yours too.
Who Is in Control?

"So shall My Word be that goes forth from My mouth; it shall not return to Me void, but it shall accomplish what I please, and it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it." Isaiah 55:11

Parenting experts disagree on quite a few things, such as spanking, time outs, manners, sleeping, eating, obedience, and tantrums. Typically though, there is one common thread among those who claim to know how to raise children; you must follow through on what you say. If a parent explains the consequences of disobedience to their child, they must be ready and willing to carry them out. In other words, parents must mean what they say. This fosters respect and prompt, pleasant obedience in most cases because children quickly learn who is in control: the parent.

Just as smart parents follow through in order to teach their children obedience, sometimes God uses prophecy for the instruction of His children. He wants us to know that when He says He will do something, we can be absolutely sure it will come to pass as He said. At the same time, He is showing us His authority and trustworthiness so that if we ever question what is going on in the world, we can simply search His Word, discover what He says about it, and remember who is in control: Almighty God.

"He who breathes into our hearts the heavenly hope will not deceive or fail us when we press forward to its realization." Anonymous

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

This waiting...

will either:
a) make me stronger
b) drive me crazy
c) drive me to drink
d) make me throw away all clocks & calendars
e) eat 100 pounds of chocolate
f) all of the above
g) none of the above

I promise that I will post new info. when I have it...right now...it's still a waiting game! Cara...I think you need to come visit me :o)

Monday, April 13, 2009

Spring Break Pictures...


Sorry that it has taken me so long to post these! We did have a great time in NC although we didn't take many pictures :o( Phoebe did really well visiting a whole lot of people that she doesn't remember :o)

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Happy Easter!!!

Praying that you are having a very blessed & joy filled Easter. He is RISEN...He is RISEN indeed!

Friday, April 10, 2009

The "Scoop"...

I know many of you are wearing yourselves out checking my blog to see if I have posted any new news on our adoption progress :o) so I thought I would give you an update although it's not too terribly exciting at this point.

Our children's passports have been obtained & their files are in review at DHS for final approval. I'm not sure if they actually had their medical exams, but for some unknown reason have not had their TB tests done yet & now can not have them until Monday. So please pray that they will get them on Monday & that we will get negative results on Wednesday & have final approval by Friday of next week. Thanks!

Monday, April 6, 2009

I surrender...

Have you ever been in a season in your life where you think you're doing the right things, you're trying your best to seek & do God's will in your life, & then all of sudden...........WHAMO!.................you get "thrown" down to the ground & you're only hope of getting back up is to take the hand that Jesus is extending to you & let him pick you up & put you back on your feet? Well, I am experiencing one of those seasons right now. I would probably still be cluessless today about my predicament if it wasn't for having a wonderful, caring friend who loves me too much to tell me just what I want to hear. She spoke the truth in love...even though it was still painful to hear...and God's words through her voice...spoke to my heart & spirit. This song pretty much sums it up about what I'm doing about it.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

The Gathering...

You're mama...


was doing the same thing yesterday but I didn't get a picture of it! Two peas in a pod! :o)

Friday, April 3, 2009

Our Awesome God!!!

Wednesday was a rollercoaster ride of emotions for me. After learning the news that Passports wanted to see Caleb's birthmother before issuing his passport, I was a "mess." I bawled my eyes out & then was briefly overtaken by fear & selfishness. Fear that this gave his birthmother another opportunity to change her mind, & selfishness of not wanting to go through the pain of all kind of scenarios related to that, even though I know without a doubt God has chosen Caleb to be a part of our family. I want my children home now! I feel like I've waited long enough & do not want to go through a long, drawn out something else to test or grow my faith or anyone else's. I just want my children home...now!!! So after telling God all of that I broke down & did what I knew He was calling me to do...which was to trust Him...and give it all to Him. So I did...even if that means waitng another year or two more for my child(ren) to come home. Once I released Caleb to God I was filled with complete peace.

Thursday morning I found out that our usually mild mannered, not so assertive but very hard working Orphanage Director told passports that everything was complete & legal on the Haitian side & that they had no right to ask for the birthparents presence at this point. I am totally convinced that this was Holy Spirit led assertiveness...and they responded with, "Okay, you can come pick up the passport." Thank you Jesus!!!
So he was suppose to have picked up Caleb's passport yesterday morning & then submit all of our files to DHS for final approval. We are waiting for confirmation today whether he was able to do everything as planned.

The next "hurdle" we face is the children's TB test. They are suppose to be going for their medical exams today which are needed for the final DHS approval. We need to pray that all 5 children's (including the 2 that aren't mine :o) TB test come back negative because if they don't...you're looking at about a month delay in getting a chest x ray, the results of it, & the 10 days of treatment that is required before they are allowed to enter the US. They will read the results Monday so please pray that they are negative. Thanks!


Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Please pray!!!

I can't even write about this right now but you can go to Cara's blog...see right side blog listing...and read her post for today. The "other" child is Caleb. Please pray! Thanks!

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

2 out of 3...

always reminded me of that old Meatloaf song(for you young ins...I'm talking about the band...not the dish :o) But in this particular instance I'm talking about PASSPORTS! I got the call yesterday that they have Samara & Shakira's passports & are hoping to get Caleb's either today or tomorrow. Please pray that Caleb's passport will be ready so they can submit all 3 files to DHS before the end of the week. Thank you!!!

Monday, March 30, 2009

Better late than never...

I know that the movie "Fireproof" came out last fall but Randy & I just watched it for the first time last night at our Christ Care meeting. Randy & I stayed up until 1am talking about it & I am still wide awake. I plan to get the DVD & I have a feeling I will be watching it a lot.

This movie has shaken me to the core...not because we are on the verge of a divorce, although we have come painfully close to the edge a couple of times during our almost 20 years of marriage, but because it spoke to, & deeply touched many facets of my life. The first one being that I am a poor, miserable sinner, & that I have "spat" in God's face many times but He continues to love me even though I do not deserve it. The second, being convicted of how many times I have "spat" in the faces of people I love when they did not deserve it. Some of them showed me mercy & grace, forgave me, & stayed by my side while others turned away & ran. I am truly sorry for all the "face spitting" that I have ever done.

The third thing that spoke to me was that just as God loves us even when we are unlovable, we are called by God to love others when they are unlovable. Not an easy thing to do, but required just the same. Although I do not think that means we are to be a "door mat" for others, I do think that we are called to "go the extra mile" in regarding showing kindness & love to others...even "sand paper people" the ones that "rub us" the wrong way but God has placed in our lives for a time to refine us. I admit that I do very poorly in this area & am asking for God's help & strength.

The fourth one is that although I know that marriage is a covenant between my husband & God, one that is not to be broken or taken lightly, that I need to remember what was said in the movie, "You never leave your partner, especially in a fire." Although I know that, for years I have had to fight the urge I get to "run away" when things get tough in my marriage. I do not like the feeling and I am more mindful of it. I did not grow up in a house with a mother & father in a strong, long lasting marriage. I grew up with divorce. My father has been married 4 times...divorced 3 times, & one wife died. My mother has been married 3 times & divorced 3 times. I thank God for getting to see my Grandmother & Grandfather in a strong marriage for so many years. Parents are role models to their children...what kind of picture of marriage are we painting for our children?

The fifth thing that really "hit" me was the comment in the movie where Caleb told his wife that "for the past 7 years I have trampled on you with my words & my actions." I really was convicted of that. There have been many times that I have carelessly "trampled" on my husband with my words & actions...and for that I am deeply sorry & ask forgiveness from both God & my husband. I pray that God will replace my "carelessness & cruelty" with love & kindness.

And lastly, I am thinking about the waiting. Am I doing everything that I should be during the "waiting times"...when the wait is long & hard...when I am waiting for His direction...when there seems to be no answer or relief in sight? Is my waiting God pleasing? Am I doing it with purpose & a peace?




If you have not seen "Fireproof" yet, I encourage you to do so as soon as you can!

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Praying for Passports!







Well, the word from Haiti yesterday is that our passports weren't ready to be picked up but they say they "should" be ready Monday. Please pray with me that our passports along with my wonderful friend Cara's, will be ready & picked up on Monday. Our files will then be submitted to DHS for the final approval. This typically takes 1-2 weeks. I am praying that it will take less than a week...you never know...it CAN happen! :o) After DHS approval then we request the visa appointment. Please pray that the visa appointment is scheduled in a very timely manner as well as going very smoothly with visa's in hand. Please also pray that when it comes time for us to fly down that we will be blessed with reasonable...preferably..."cheap" airfares. Please also pray that my children will not "freak out" as we depart Haiti & arrive in the US :o)

So while we wait for the above to happen we are busy finishing up last minute projects, packing bags for the birthmothers, ourselves & Shakira, Samara, & Caleb. The only thing we haven't done yet that really needs to be done before they come home is to get our "pyscho cat" declawed. We've never declawed any of our cats before but we don't want to take a chance with Cali as she is so unpredictable & the kids are pretty freaked out by cats at the moment.

Friday, March 27, 2009

God's living presence = our greatest joy!

How lovely is your dwelling place, O Lord of Heaven's Armies.
I long, yes, I faint with longing to enter the courts of the Lord.
With my whole being, body & soul, I will shout joyfully to the living God.
Even the sparrow finds a home, & the swallow builds her nest & raises her young at a
place near your alter, O Lord of Heaven's Armies, my King & my God!
What joy for those who can live in your house, always singing your praises.
What joy for those whose strength comes from the Lord, who have set their minds on a
pilgmrimage to Jerusalem.
When they walk through the Valley of Weeping, it will become a place of refreshing springs.
The autumn rains will clothe it with blessings.
They will continue to grow stronger, & each of them will appear before the God in Jerusalem.
O Lord God of Heaven's Armies, hear my prayer. Listen, O God of Jacob.
O God, look with favor upon the king, our shield!
Show favor to the ones you have annointed.
A single day in your courts is better than a thousand anywhere else!
I would rather be a gatekeeper in the house of my God than live the good life in the homes of the wicked.
For the Lord God is our sun & our shield.
He gives us grace & glory.
The Lord will withhold no good thing from those who do what is right.
O Lord of Heaven's Armies, what joy for those who trust in you.
Psalm 84 NLT

The footnotes to the Life Application Study Bible say the following about this psalm.84:1,4 The writer longed to get away from the bustling world to meet God inside his dwelling place, his holy Temple. We can meet God anywhere, at any time. But we know that going into a church building can help us step aside from the busy mainstream of life so we can quietly meditate & pray. We find joy & strength not only in the prayers, music, lessons, & sermons but also in fellowshiping with other believers in a special place.

84:5-7 The pilgrimage to the Temple passed through the barren Valley of Weeping. No specific valley has been identified. The "weeping" may have been a symbolic reference to the times of struggles & tears through which people must pass on their way to meet God. Growing strong in God's presence is often preceded by a journey through barren places in our lives. The person who loves to spend time with God will see his or her adversity as an opportunity to experience God's faithfulness even more deeply. If you are walking through your own Valley of Weeping today, be sure your pilgrimage leads toward God, not away from him.

84:11 God does not promise to give us everything we think is good, but he will not withhold what is permanently good. He will give us the means to walk along his paths, but we must do the walking. When we obey him, he will not hold anything back that will help us serve him.

Saturday, March 21, 2009

We're................Here.................

Well, we arrived safely in Asheville, NC today! We haven't been back to visit our old stomping grounds for over 3 years & decided it was time to go back. We're staying with some very dear friends. I plan to watch a lot of basketball, read, & visit with my friends. No hiking, rock climbing, or white water rafting on this trip!

Friday, March 20, 2009

Coming up to breathe...

Although I can recall most of the what has happened in the past week, I honestly feel like I was in a "fog" through it all. As of tonight we will be home for 3 days since my Grandpa's funeral. I've cried, had strange dreams, & have tried patiently to help my 5 year old deal with all of her emotions as well.

Today I'm coming up for "air." I wish I could say that I'm just going to lounge around the house all day with my feet up but that is not the case. I am glady packing our suitcase & getting things in order as we leave tomorrow for Spring Break. A "break" that is perfect timing! I am looking forward to just hanging out & having fun for a few days.