Sunday, November 29, 2009

Phoebe...





I am so thankful for my daughter Phoebe. Phoebe is not our oldest child by year of birth but she is our first child. Phoebe came to us after 14 years of marriage...at time when we didn't know if we would be blessed with children or not. I am thankful that God chose us to be her parents. I still remember the day we brought her home...just like it was yesterday.

I am thankful for her cheery personality & her amazing smile. I am thankful for all the gifts that God has blessed her with at such a young age. I am thankful for her sincere heart & sweet spirit...the one that sometimes hides behind her independent & strong willed self. I am thankful for her generousity to others as well as a desire to help whenever she can. I am thankful for her playfullness, her eagerness to learn, & willingness to try new things. I am thankful that she has adjusted well from going to an only child to having two sisters & a brother. I am thankful that she doesn't mind sharing her room with her two sisters. I am thankful for her sweet kisses & hug like a bear hugs. Thank you Phoebe...for being you!

Saturday, November 28, 2009

My husband...



I am thankful for my wonderful husband who puts up with me when I'm nice...and when I'm not! I am thankful to God for the 20 years of married life that he has blessed us with thus far. I am thankful that after all of these years he can still lift me up higher than anyone (other than God of course) when I'm feeling down. I am thankful for when he says I'm beautiful when I'm totally convinced that I'm not. I am thankful that he has learned to let me rant & rave about something & then politely say, "What can I do to help?" I am thankful that he is a good provider for our family & an amazing father to our children. I am thankful that he is a Godly man & a good person. Thank you Randy...for being my better half!

Friday, November 27, 2009

For waiting adoptive parents...



For the last couple of weeks, the Lord has laid upon my heart the cries of my friends who are still waiting to bring their adoptive children home. I have been lifting them up in prayer & fighting in the spirit on their behalf. Yesterday was a wonderful day for our family as we celebrated our first Thanksgiving together but in my thoughts & heart, were the old feelings of empty, bittersweetness that we experience while we waited for our children to come home. I know that many of you out there are in that place right now. Some of you may have children at home & desperately want to enjoy the moment with them but are stuck in an adoption time warp & can't do that because of the piece(s) of your heart that are still in far away lands. Please know that I do care...and that I am praying for you & your families.

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Happy Thanksgiving!


Our family has much to be thankful for today...and every day. I am thankful first & foremost to Jesus, for pulling me out of the miry clay & washing me clean with His blood that was shed for me...and you.

I will spend the next few days expressing my thankfulness regarding family & friends in detail but today I wanted to focus on my overall thankfulness to God for everything I have.

Five years ago today, we walked into a church for its Thanksgiving service. We had only moved to IN two weeks prior & was looking for a church home. We had a list & this church was the second one on our list. We had went to the first one the Sunday prior but wasn't feeling that it was where we were suppose to be.

The second church was different. We felt like we were "home" as soon as we walked in. We sat through the service...which we totally "connected with"...and then was welcomed by many of the people there, as well as the Pastor. We've been at this church ever since. The Pastor & the people are a huge blessing to me & my family. They are a part of our family...and for that...we are very thankful!

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

TKD...





We know many people who started their children in dance, gymnastics, soccer, or whatever else when they were 3 years old. And that's great for them but we didn't think it was right for Phoebe. She likes to do a lot of things but that doesn't mean that she'll want to do them on a regular basis for long term. Not to mention the effect on family time & the pocket book when you're children are involved in too many things at one time.

Phoebe really likes to swim. She took her first swimming lessons when she was 6 months old. I think she's part fish :o) She really enjoys being in the water. Last year at this time, they had a swim clinic for her age group. It was for a week or so & then at the end of it you could decide if you wanted your child to join the local competitive swim team.

Phoebe wanted to do the clinic so I signed her up. At the end of the week they sat all the parents down & went over how much the swim team cost & everything else that was involved in it. My heart sank as I knew I was going to have to tell Phoebe she could not join. One it was too expensive & they wanted all the money up front...plus you had travel expenses on top of that...and two, it was a huge time commitment.

So as thoughts whirled around my head as I tried to figure out how Randy & I were going to tell her that she could not join, she came up to me & said, "This has been good Mom, but it's a lot of work. All they want to do is race & I want to just swim & have fun." Whew...what a relief! She was content to take swim lessons at the YMCA during the winter & go to the local pool (almost) every day in the summer.

During her kindergarten year she did participate in Daisy Girl Scouts & Upwards Cheerleading, which she really liked & is doing them again this year. Both of those activities are a good fit for her & our family. The Upwards Cheerleading is only for 3 months of the year which leaves the rest of the year other than swimming in the summer as an "active activity." Phoebe really likes music & dancing but she's not what I would call a "girly" dancer. I couldn't see her grabbing ballet shoes & going to dance class every week. The same for gymnastics & other activities that her friends are in. So I kept praying about it. I prayed that God would show me what Phoebe should do & when she should do it...and he did :o)

I kept sensing that she should take some sort of martial arts class although I had always been set against it. A couple people mentioned to me that they thought that would be good for Phoebe & then I got a coupon to try a TKD free for 6 classes. Hmmm, looks like this is the direction we should be going :o) So Phoebe started TKD (Tae Kwon Doe) four weeks ago & she really likes it. She has one more free class & then she will officially join.

Somewhere down the road, we may have all the children in it. Shakira & Samara both sit beside me as we watch Phoebe & they throw the punches right on time as the instructor calls them out. And it might help Caleb to "man up" a little :o) but he has to wait at least until he's 3 to join the "Tiny Tigers."

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Traveling Man...

You may have read this story before but I think it's worth re-reading.

I sat, with two friends, in the picture window of a quaint restaurant just off the corner of the town-square. The food and the company were both especially good that day. As we talked, my attention was drawn outside, across the street. There, walking into town, was a man who appeared to be carrying all his worldly goods on his back. He was carrying, a well-worn sign that read, 'I will work for food.' My heart sank.

I brought him to the attention of my friends and noticed that others around us had stopped eating to focus on him. Heads moved in a mixture of sadness and disbelief.
We continued with our meal, but his image lingered in my mind.

We finished our meal and went our separate ways. I had errands to do and quickly set out to accomplish them. I glanced toward the town square, looking somewhat halfheartedly for the strange visitor. I was fearful, knowing that seeing him again would call some response. I drove through town and saw nothing of him. I made some purchases at a store and got back in my car.

Deep within me, the Spirit of God kept speaking to me: 'Don't go back to the office until you've at least driven once more around the square.' Then with some hesitancy, I headed back into town. As I turned the square's third corner, I saw him. He was standing on the steps of the store front church, going through his sack.

I stopped and looked; feeling both compelled to speak to him, yet wanting to drive on. The empty parking space on the corner seemed to be a sign from God: an invitation to park. I pulled in, got out and approached the town's newest visitor.

"Looking for the pastor?", I asked.

"Not really," he replied, "just resting."

"Have you eaten today?"

"Oh, I ate something early this morning."

"Would you like to have lunch with me?"

"Do you have some work I could do for you?"

"No work," I replied. "I commute here to work from the city, but I would like to take you to lunch."

"Sure," he replied with a smile.

As he began to gather his things, I asked some surface questions. "Where are you headed?"

"St. Louis"

"Where you from?"

"Oh, all over; mostly Florida."

"How long you been walking?"

"Fourteen years," came the reply.

I knew I had met someone unusual. We sat across from each other in the same restaur ant I had left earlier. His face was weathered slightly beyond his 38 years. His eyes were dark yet clear, and he spoke with an eloquence and articulation that was startling. He removed his jacket to reveal a bright red T-shirt that said, 'Jesus is The Never Ending Story.'

Then Daniel's story began to unfold. He had seen rough times early in life. He'd made some wrong choices and reaped the consequences. Fourteen years earlier, while backpacking across the country, he had stopped on the beach in Daytona. He tried to hire on with some men who were putting up a large tent and some equipment. A concert, he thought.

He was hired, but the tent would not house a concert but revival services, and in those services he saw life more clearly. He gave his life over to God.

"Nothing's been the same since," he said, "I felt the Lord telling me to keep walking, and so I did, some 14 years now."

"Ever think of stopping?", I asked.

"Oh, once in a while, when it seems to get the best of me But God has given me this calling. I give out Bibles. That's what's in my sack. I work to buy food and Bibles, and I give them out when His Spirit leads."

I sat amazed. My homeless friend was not homeless... He was on a mission and lived this way by choice. The question burned inside for a moment and then I asked: "What's it like?"

"What?"

"To walk into a town carrying all your things on your back and to show your sign?"

"Oh, it was humiliating at first. People would stare and make comments. Once someone tossed a piece of half-eaten bread and made a gesture that certainly didn't make me feel welcome. But then it became humbling to realize that God was using me to touch lives and change people's concepts of other folks like me."

My concept was changing, too. We finished our dessert and gathered his things. Just outside the door, he paused. He turned to me and said, "Come Ye blessed of my Father and inherit the kingdom I've prepared for you. For when I was hungry you gave me food, when I was thirsty you gave me drink, a stranger and you took me in."

I felt as if we were on holy ground. "Could you use another Bible?", I asked.

He said he preferred a certain translation. It traveled well and was not too heavy. It was also his personal favorite. "I've read through it 14 times," he said.

"I'm not sure we've got one of those, but let's stop by our church and see." I was able to find my new friend a Bible that would do well, and he seemed very grateful.

"Where are you headed from here?", I asked.

"Well, I found this little map on the back of this amusement park coupon."

"Are you hoping to hire on there for awhile?"

"No, I just figure I should go there. I figure someone under that star right there needs a Bible, so that's where I'm going next."

He smiled, and the warmth of his spirit radiated the sincerity of his mission. I drove him back to the town-square where we'd met two hours earlier, and as we drove, it started raining. We parked and unloaded his things.

"Would you sign my autograph book?" he asked. "I like to keep messages from folks I meet."

I wrote in his little book that his commitment to his calling had touched my life. I encouraged him to stay strong. And I left him with a verse of scripture from Jeremiah, 'I know the plans I have for you, declared the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you; Plans to give you a future and a hope."

"Thanks, man," he said. "I know we just met and we're really just strangers, but I love you."

"I know," I said, "I love you, too. The Lord is good!"

"Yes, He is."

"How long has it been since someone hugged you?", I asked.

"A long time," he replied.

And so on the busy street corner in the drizzling rain, my new friend and I embraced, and I felt deep inside that I had been changed. He put his things on his back, smiled his winning smile and said, "See you in the New Jerusalem."

"I'll be there!", was my reply.

He began his journey again. He headed away with his sign dangling from his bedroll and pack of Bibles. He stopped, turned and said, "When you see something that makes you think of me, will you pray for me?"

"You bet," I shouted back, "God bless!"

"God bless." And that was the last I saw of him.

Late that evening as I left my office, the wind blew strong. The cold front had settled hard upon the town. I bundled up and hurried to my car. As I sat back and reached for the emergency brake, I saw them... a pair of well-worn brown work gloves neatly laid over the length of the handle. I picked them up and thought of my friend and wondered if his hands would stay warm that night without them.

Then I remembered his words: "If you see something that makes you think of me, will you pray for me?"

Today his gloves lie on my desk in my office. They help me to see the world and its people in a new way, and they help me remember those two hours with my unique friend and to pray for his ministry. "See you in the New Jerusalem," he said. Yes, Daniel, I know I will...

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Leaf Fun!




Never mind the strict instructions from mommy to daddy about not having Phoebe & Samara in the leaf piles due to asthma/allergies & a vivid reminder from mommy to Phoebe & Samara about what happens when Phoebe gets in leaf piles.

Friday, November 20, 2009

Phone...

Yeah, I've been on a roll this week, haven't I? :o) I'm sure this daily posting won't last much longer but I've just felt compelled to write a lot this week. This post is a pretty random post about my cell phone.

I got a new cell phone the other day because 1) I was eligible for a free upgrade & 2) my phone was having some major issues such as not holding it's charge, dropping calls, & doing strange things with voice mails (which reminds me, if you left me a voice mail in the past week & I didn't respond to it, please call again).

Now I know getting a new cell phone is not a major newsflash...this is where the randomness comes in :o)...but seriously...when did a phone stop being a phone? I grew up with a home phone that had a party line. Anyone out there know what a party line is? My guess is if you're 30 or under, you have no clue.

So fast forward to today where you have phones that not only call people, but you can text them, surf the net, check your E mail, fax things, use it as a daily planner, play games, listen to music, & take pictures. It's kind of absurd really.

So I am on the old fashioned side. I like my phone to be a phone. I don't need a bunch of fancy features, just a way to call people & for them to call me. Compared to most people these days I have a pretty basic phone but it still does more than I need it to: I can take pictures, & if I pay for it, I can have working bluetooth, navigator, & music "apps". No thank you, I'll just stick to making phone calls...without a star trek looking thingy in my ear :o)

Guidelines for living a blameless life...

Who may worship in your sanctuary, Lord?
Who may enter your presence on your holy hill?
Those who lead blameless lives & do what is right,
speaking the truth from sincere hearts.
Those who refuse to gossip
or harm their neighbors
or speak evil of their friends.
Those who despise flagrant sinners,
& honor the faithful followers of the Lord,
& keep their promises even when it hurts.
Those who lend money without charging interest,
& who cannot be bribed to lie about the innocent.
Such people will stand firm forever.
Psalm 15 NLT

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Forgiveness...

Okay...so if you're not a Dr. David Jeremiah fan, I apologize, but I really like his devotions. This one today really spoke to my heart as there are some people in my "circle" that are really struggling with this right now. I want to share it with them & you. We all need forgiveness...first & foremost God's, that is available to us through Jesus Christ...and secondly from our family, friends, & anyone else we can think of. We need to forgive...and to be forgiven.

800 Pacos

"I have swept away your offenses like a cloud, your sins like the morning mist. Return to me, for I have redeemed you." Isaiah 44:22 NIV
Recommended Reading Luke 15:11-32

A Spanish father and son had a falling out, and the son ran away. The father set off to find him, and after months of looking to no avail, he finally put an ad in the Madrid newspaper. It read: "Dear Paco, meet in front of the newspaper office at noon on Saturday. All is forgiven. I love you. Your father." 800 Pacos showed up to the newspaper office that Saturday, all looking for love and forgiveness from their fathers.

Forgiveness is a difficult concept. Our main point of reference on the subject is how hard it is to forgive someone who has hurt us or a loved one. And because we struggle with forgiving others, we sometimes have a hard time accepting God's forgiveness. But regardless of how we view God's willingness and ability to forgive, He sees us in purity through the blood of His Son, Jesus Christ, rather than in the filth of our sin.

When we feel like running away from God because our sin is just too great, we have to remember that all is forgiven, He loves us, and He is waiting for us with open arms.

Our Savior kneels down and gazes upon the darkest acts of our lives. But rather than recoil in horror, He reaches out in kindness and says, "I can clean that if you want." Max Lucado

2 & 1/2!


Happy 2 & 1/2 birthday "little man"!

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Transparent...not perfect...

The Random House dictionary defines the word transparent as follows: "showing through", "Having the property of transmitting rays of light through its substance so that bodies sitiuated beyond or behind, can be distinctly seen." "Easily seen through, recognized, or detected." That which is transparent allows objects to be seen clearly through it. That which is translucent allows light to pass through, diffusing it however, so that objects beyond it are not distinctly seen. It then goes on to define opaque which means "shaded" & is the opposite of transparent. "Not transparent or translucent; impenetrable to light; not allowing light to pass through." "not shining or bright; dark; dull", "hard to understand; not clear or lucid."

I have been told by several people that I have the "gift" of being transparent. Some people really do see it as a gift, a blessing; but there are some people who see it as a curse. Why is that?

In my Christ Care group we are currently going through a very powerful dvd study called "H20 A Journey of Faith" (I highly recommend doing this study...it's by "City on a Hill Productions"). The second sesssion we watched was titled "Polluted". In the reflection section of the study it listed several "pollutants" of the church & asked which one bothers you the most. My answer was "the hypocrisy of those who claim to be following Him".

To be honest, that particular pollutant drives me close to insanity. Not because I think that all Christians should be perfect. Quite the contrary, I know we are not perfect...and neither is anyone else except for Jesus. But as followers of Christ, we should strive to be like him. We should do the best we can with the power of the Holy Spirit. We should confess our sins, repent & ask for forgiveness. We should then accept God's forgiveness & strive to "go & sin no more." We should stop hiding behind church curtains, padded pews, clerical collars, a bunch of initials behind our names, &/or a long list of the "great things we have done for God" because none of this truly matters to Jesus if we do not have his love inside of us &/or do not let it shine outward to others.

In the "Polluted" study, it goes on to say that the Bible tells us not to blindly trust people, especially those who claim to be communicating messages from God. Why?
Because people will let us down. People will intentionally mislead. People are polluted by sin (the whole reason we need Jesus to begin with).
"My dear friends, don't believe everything you hear. Carefully weigh & examine what people tell you. Not everyone who talks about God comes from God. There are a lot of lying preachers loose in the world." 1 John 4:1 The Message

The church's hypocrisy has done a lot to decrease the witness of Jesus. We have made it opaque & not transparent. Jesus is calling us to be transparent so his light can show through clearly & He can be seen for who he truly is...the pure, living water...what we all need.

Monday, November 16, 2009

No Room...

Don't you just love it when you're going through a certain situation in your life, & you really need some direction & encouragement, & someone sends you a devotional or inspirational story that speaks directly to what you're going through? I thank God that He talks to us in these ways. The following devotion by Dr. David Jeremiah was sent to me recently during such a time. Both Phoebe & I have been dealing with "bullies" for the past 3 weeks. It can be very draining & distract you from the work God has called you to do. I am thankful for the God given encouragement we have been given during this difficult time & I want to encourage others to not give into bullying & it's destructive force but to stand on the Word of God & be empowered by the Holy Spirit who gives us strength.

No Room for Bullies
For an overseer, as God's manager, must be blameless... not a bully....
Titus 1:7 (HCSB)

Recommended Reading
James 4:6-7

There's a long list of bullies in the Bible: The brothers who bedeviled Joseph, the Pharaoh who bullied Moses, those foreign invaders who threatened Judah, Haman who hated Mordecai, Jezebel who threw Elijah into fits, the Pharisees who tried to intimidate Jesus, and Alexander the coppersmith who did harm to Paul. Bullies can show up anywhere, even at home or church. At some point, we have to take a stand in the name of Christ and resist bullying.

Bullies don't always come in human form. The devil sends doubts, fears, and worries to browbeat us. James said that if we resist the devil, he will flee from us—as bullies usually do. Let's think of ourselves as children whose older brother stands at our side. Because of Him we are more than conquerors.

The Bible says, "Don't be bluffed into silence by the threats of bullies. There's nothing they can do to your soul.... Save your fear for God, who holds your entire life—body and soul—in His hands (Matthew 10:28, the Message).

"The fear of the Lord tends to take away all other fears... This is the secret of Christian courage and boldness." Sinclair B. Ferguson

Saturday, November 14, 2009

All sorts of anniversaries!


Well, it's anniversary time in our house. No, not wedding anniverary...that was in August :o) October 30th marked 5 years as me being a stay at home mom. Wow! 5 years! I have to confess that in the planning of "my life", I never thought I would be a stay at home mom. When we were planning to move to IN, Randy & I both felt God calling me to stay at home with Phoebe. We had no idea how long I would be able to do it but knew that I needed to do it for awhile after our move. "Awhile" has now been 5 years & I am so thankful to God for Him giving me this opportunity. It is still the hardest job that I have had so far, but I am cherishing every day that I can do it.

This past Monday, Nov. 9th, was the 6th month anniversary of our children coming home from Haiti. I can't believe it's been 6 months! This time last year we were still stuck in "no man's land" between Parquet & MOI, & had no idea when we would get into MOI. The first of the year brought news that we were in & we just sat back & watched God beautifully orchestrate His plan in having Phoebe & I visit in Feb. so she could meet her siblings & then to forever bond with them at home three months later, the day before Mother's Day.

We are still running the marathon. Some days we are in awe of how much growth has happened in our children since they came home & other days we just shake our heads & say to ourselves, "Come on, you should know this by now." But either way, we are so thankful for our precious gifts from God!

Tomorrow will mark our 5 year anniversary of moving to Indiana. When we moved here we knew we were following God's will but at the time really had no idea what His plan was in having us move here. Five years later, His plan is pretty clear. We have no idea how long we are to stay here, but as with everything else...we will trust in His plan & timing.

On Nov. 19th, "little man" will turn 2 & 1/2. Wow! I am so thankful that God allowed him to come before his 2nd birthday & allow me to parent at least a little bit of "baby" left in him. He's talking a mile a minute...however, none of us can truly understand what he is saying :o) I'm hoping that will improve soon :o)

The picture is a picture we took on Monday evening after we had our 6 month celebration dinner. I think it does a good job in capturing who we are right now as a family.